Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Okay, okay, half-FULL.

I've been in such a funk (and I think you all know why), that I now feel compelled to stop my whining and moping and getting teary-eyed and feeling sorry for myself and remember that there are still good things about my life. There are, damn it...and I will come up with a few of them here even if it takes me all day. Heh.

Okay, well...it's spring. Officially and otherwise. Flowers are blooming and the sun is shining and I'm wearing flip-flops and sandals almost all the time. That is a definite plus!

New Guy is being really sweet when I do see him, and I'm determined to enjoy the hell out of whatever time we have left. He's excited to see the play when it opens (just before he leaves for yet another full week out-of-town...boo-hoo), and I also told him he might have to come back to town to see me onstage when next I do something more...substantive (and less Three's Company-like farce--hee). And he seemed to think he would like to do that...and that made me feel good.

Also, as much as I would like him to stay in my life, and will continue to hope down deep inside that we're NOT completely through come June, I have to say...he seems to be in a much happier place now. I think making the decision to make a job change really lightened his emotional load, so to speak, and getting things out in the open with me seems to have made things better between us for now. So, there's that.

Rehearsals are going well--lots of laughter, which I very much need right now.

My pets and I are all relatively healthy. Even heartwormy Rover seems to be hanging in there. I'm particularly grateful for my health when I do my weekly litterbox scooping for my cancer-battling friend. (It's been almost six months now, with no end in sight. Please send thoughts/prayers/good vibes her way.) Of course, watching her go through it alone, basically (despite being engaged three times, she never married), and thinking "omigod, what if that were me?" only makes me sadder that Mr. Right seems further away than ever. But I'm looking for the GOOD here, right? So...

I am happy to be able to swallow. Seriously. As much as I would like to get motivated to lose some more weight, I'm happy to be able to eat. (My friend can't, really. The radiation burned her esophagus so badly it still hasn't healed.)

Lately, I have been most happy to swallow these:

I can't get enough of these. I'm not sure why (and, for the record, the "lemon chicken" version I find very unpleasant), but I just crave them.

I've also recently discovered Greek yogurt. One of the food reporters for the local paper was raving about it. Better than Brown Cow, I thought? How can that be? Well, try this:

Fage brand greek yogurt with fruit. Oh my gosh, it's good. It's incredibly creamy and smooth. SO yummy.

What else, what else?

I'm wearing sparkly, leopard-spotted flip-flops right now, courtesy of my mother the Avon lady (some sort of ordering mistake, I gather), and really...who isn't cheered up by seeing sparkly, leopard-spotted flip-flops at the end of her legs? And, if I get tired of the leopard spots, they came in a set with some sparkly zebra-striped ones, as well. So I'm all set in the sparkly flip-flop department. (Hee.)

I also have to say that I very much appreciate my friends (of both the bloggy and "real life" variety) telling me repeatedly (and apparently sincerely) that if New Guy and I ARE through, then it's HIS loss. And then offering to kick his ass. Thanks, guys! You really know how to cheer a girl up.


Stinkypaw said...

Half full is better than empty! You go girl!

Sending good vibes for both your friend and yourself. Do take care & enjoy the moments!

-R- said...

Yay for sparkly flip-flops!

nancypearlwannabe said...

Love the Greek yogurt! Trader Joe's has a honey one that is AMAZING. Yay for you and New Guy making the most of your time together. I will refrain from mentioning my previous two offers of ass kickage.


Also, how is it so warm in Tulsa?! For some reason I thought it was in the 40's there. I guess that's just us Northerners. I want flip flops!

Stefanie said...

I've heard good things about this Greek yogurt of which you speak, but never tried it myself. I should seek it out. Meatless barbecue beef, though? Not so sure.

Feel like a trip to the east coast this weekend? A blogger meet-up should cheer you up! :-)

3carnations said...

Since they are meatless, is it really appropriate to use the word "beef"? Veggie burgers are one thing; burger really just describes the patty of food, whereas beef...Well, that's beef.

Sparkling Cipher said...

Yeah, I'm a little confused by "meatless beef," also. Isn't that an oxymoron?

Sparkly flip flops are enough to make me happy. I was all set to dust mine off last weekend. Then it SNOWED! Bah.

Glad these couple months with New Guy are looking to be happy ones.

Sending good thoughts to your friend. Hope she kicks cancer's ass. She's lucky to have you.

Noelle said...

I just blogged sad yesterday. I hate doing that, but sometimes even the best distractions can't make that heaviness go away. I wish it was something a little fake meat could fix, but alas, I need more. Not that I'm not going to go out tonight and try and find the "beef" you recommend...

lizgwiz said...

stinkypaw, I'm trying, and I'll continue to try. Though I'm sure there will be "half-empty" moments.

-r-, indeed! Sparkly AND animal print? Bonus!

npw, I've seen a honey flavored one, and it didn't seem that appealing for some reason, but now I think I'll try it. (And don't worry, any and all offers of ass kickage are greatly appreciated.)

stef, oh, if only I could. I kind of think they'd miss me at load-in and rehearsal, though. ;)

3c, yeah...that bugged me when I first started eating meat replacements, too. But now I just always imagine the invisible quotation marks. "Beef." I say it that way, too. Hee.

spark, I think we are officially out of the woods on the snow front. We'd better be, at any rate! Once the flip-flops come out, they don't go back in. I don't want to trudge through snow with bare toes. ;)

noelle, it's true...distractions can only go so far. Sometimes they only take the edge off. Sigh. For us both.

L Sass said...

Half full, damnit is right!

You are a really good friend / girlfriend to New Guy--give yourself credit for being so freakin' understanding.

And your sick friend is so lucky to have you. I hope she has many people like you around her right now.

And Fage yogurt is where it's at!

gorillabuns said...

That reminds me, I need to do something about my toes since it's been in the upper 80's.

Sending positive vibes for your friend and you. Happiness and a healing of a sad situation/heart.

Sauntering Soul said...

Sending positive vibes to your friend.

I need to go out and buy myself some sparkly flip flops. Maybe it will brighten my mood.

don't call me MA'AM said...

I should trying writing a half-full post. Maybe it would also get me out of my funk.

Sparkly flip-flops and yummy yogurt? Could the world get any better?!?! I wish I could find that yogurt here.

lizgwiz said...

sass, aww...thanks. :)

gorillabuns, yeah...I had to do an emergency pedicure last weekend.

ss, definitely. I recommend sparkly flip-flops all around.

dcmm, it is most excellent yogurt. I don't know why I'd never noticed it sitting on the shelf before. Well, actually...it's more expensive than regular yogurt, that's probably why. ;)

Whiskeymarie said...

Lately I've been obsessed with greek yogurt too, but for some reason I like the plain, no-fat ones the best(with just a drizzle of honey- yum).
Oh, and morningstar farms meatless buffalo "chicken" wings. So. Good.

Funk, begone! Sparkly flip-flops, yay!